Frustration

Ugh...I am just all around frustrated, but trying to keep things together here.

Yesterday I felt ok. I decided I was going to enjoy my Halloween a bit and let myself splurge. I made plans to go to my boyfriend's house and just chill out and watch episodes of Breaking Bad on Netflix (great show, btw) I brought over Mexican and he brought a bag of Halloween candy from his parent's house.

I was kind of excited because it just seemed like the perfect relaxing Halloween night. And I was trying not to feel too guilty about splurging on my diet, especially since I did work out before hand. I did 50 minutes on the elliptical and weights and abs. I was pretty proud of myself because usually if I decide I'm going to cheat on my diet, I just throw everything out the window for that day. I figure, what's the point? But I haven't been doing that lately. I still try to work out even if I know I'm going to cheat. Or I still eat healthy for the rest of my meals. And just because I'm cheating on a meal doesn't mean I have to eat everything I could possibly want. I still try to set limits. So I think mentally that's a much healthier way to go about it. Even though I'd like to get to a point of not splurging as much as I have been. I still think veering away from this all or nothing mentality that I tend to get is a good thing.

So I was all geared up for a fun night, but it went completely unlike I planned. We basically ended up having a big argument/discussion and I felt extremely attacked and blind-sided by the whole thing. It's one thing if you want to have a discussion about things that we both know have been issues lately, but at least give me some warning that you want to bring it up? As opposed to springing it on me (in what I felt was a very attacking manner) when I was the one who suggested we have a fun Halloween night with take out and candy! Seemed pretty insensitive to me.

Anyway, that being said, I'm just not in a good mood today and feeling kind of blah about the whole idea of dieting today. I'm exhausted because I stayed up too late, so I was definitely feeling my lack of energy making me crave food today. I've been good so far, but the rest of the night is to be determined...I really don't think a workout is going to happen. And I just don't know about the food either.

For yesterday:
Breakfast: Tea
Lunch: Sushi
Dinner: Mexican food...blah.

So far today:
Breakfast: carrot juice
Lunch: Salad with Tuna
Snacks: Carrots and Celery dipped in a  little Ginger Dressing.

Hopefully I can pull myself together....