It was a very rough day today. Work was pretty much torture. Just one of those days where it feels unbearable to be there, and normally I combat that with food. It at least serves as a little bit of distraction and entertainment. On top of that, I was craving foods that I can't have. The chip craving never really went away from yesterday. And it sucks because this diet really doesn't have any kind of substitute. At least with a low calorie or even low carb diet you can use nuts, pretzels, low-calorie potato chips, tortilla chips, etc. With this diet, there's really not many options. I try to eat baby carrots to fulfill that "snacky" craving, but texture-wise it's not the same. And taste-wise, it's completely different. So that really doesn't work. The only good option really is to bake vegetables with a little olive oil spray and salt and pepper. But that requires over an hour with cooking and prep time, so it's not exactly convenient. And it's impossible for that random craving at work, unless I plan ahead.
Aside from all that, I was just feeling moody and down today. I'm not sure why, but it seems to be going around based on the Facebook statuses I was reading today. So that feeling always makes me want to eat junk food as comfort. I went the grocery store after work to get some stuff for dinner and literally had to hold myself back from buying chips or other junk food. At one point I literally stopped myself, stood still for about 2 minutes, and just took a few deep breaths. This is a tactic I read in a diet magazine once - to literally stop yourself in your tracks - and I have to say, it sort of worked. It took me out of that "heat of the moment" mode. I'm still kind of shocked that I left the store without even one thing that I shouldn't eat. And I am completely shocked that I survived the day without cheating.
I did, however, skip working out. Partly because I felt crappy, but also, I've been adding up my calories lately (even though this diet doesn't require you to count them) and I've been really low. Like REALLY low. I feel like I'm eating plenty of food, but I guess it's because I'm eating a lot of vegetables, which I don't really count. And even if I did count them, they wouldn't add up to much. So I'm kind of worried that with that and exercising, I'm going to end up sabotaging myself by doing too much. Maybe that's just me trying to come up with a reason to skip my workout, but I don't think so. It just sucks because you never know if you're helping or hurting yourself until you step on the scale. And even then, you still don't really know what you did right or wrong. So I don't know...I guess I'll see on Thursday when I weigh in.
Breakfast: Carrot juice. Lunch: Salad, tuna with dijon mustard. Dinner: "Pizza" with a crust made out of zucchini, goat cheese, and eggs. (I found this recipe online and it totally didn't work. I was craving that crispy texture of crust, but it didn't get crisp or brown at all. Ugh! What a waste of time that was. It tasted ok though, so oh well...and I have left overs for lunch tomorrow.) Snacks: Oranges, dark chocolate, baby carrots.
I think another reason I was moody today was because normally I spend all week looking forward to the weekend, but this weekend I'm going to St Louis for a wedding. While it will be fun and I'm excited to see my friend, I know that when I get back on Sunday I'll feel like I totally missed out on the weekend. Won't have time to get any of the misc. things done that I usually do (laundry, errands, etc.), and just won't have that feeling of relaxation. So I'm just kind of feeling stressed about that I guess because I feel like I'm going to work two weeks without a real break. Oh well. It will be fun.
Good night.
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