Sigh....

It was another rough day. I woke up still feeling light-headed and crappy (ugh!!!), I was feeling unhappy and depressed about some things, and I had the day off work. So all of that made it pretty tough to stick to my diet. But I did.

I didn't go running because it's really hard to do that when you feel light-headed all the time (seriously, body?? Can I please just feel normal??), but I did go for a walk. I was going to walk to run an errand, which was about 2 miles round trip. But I stepped outside and for some reason the last few days the fall-like weather has gone back to 103 degree weather! It was so hot, so I ended up only walking a mile and then walking another mile later after the sun started to go down. I still feel like I need to do more, but I guess that's not too bad considering I feel like crap.

For breakfast I had some peanut butter and milk. I really didn't feel like fruit, and that was about all I had that was good for breakfast since I hadn't been to the store yet. Then for a snack I had a peach and later an orange. Then I finally went to the store. For lunch I had a bowl of shredded wheat with a little bit of brown sugar and nonfat milk. I had an orange, raspberries, and some baby carrots for snacks. And for dinner I boiled and peeled zucchini to use as a pasta substitute. I made my own tomato sauce with tomatoes, basil, garlic, and a little bit of olive oil. It didn't come out quite like I wanted, but not bad. For dessert I had some strawberries and raspberries, and later had a spoonful of peanut butter and another bowl of shredded wheat.

I've been craving chocolate again all day, but didn't give in. I feel like the more you eat things like chocolate, the more your body probably craves them. I guess I did ok on my diet...but I feel like I ate way too much. I mean, I stayed under my calories, but I ate a lot more today than I have been and I know most of it wasn't because I was hungry. I wish I could find a better solution to feeling bad (physically or mentally) than food, but it's tough when there's not much to distract myself around here. I'm just feeling down...and I feel really fat today because I ate a lot more than normal. Ugh. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. I have the day off work again (other than a meeting in the morning), but I have some possible plans to go the beach with my room mate's, so at least I won't be just sitting around watching TV all day. Hopefully I won't feel completely fat tomorrow since I have to wear a swimsuit....

Good night.