Ok, I've been a loser the last couple of days. But I'm not ready to give up on this. So my only other option is to fucking do it already.
I'm being shut out by people (ok....one person) around me, so you know what? I'm going to shut them out and focus tunnel vision on myself. I can do this. I can find that person inside of me again and move ahead full force.
A couple friends and I are talking about training for a half marathon. I think it might help because it would mean training for something bigger than just losing weight. And I tend to feel more motivated when I feel like I'm pushing myself and doing more than I've ever done before. Running a half marathon has always terrified me, but I also know it would be amazing because I feel like it's something I could never do. So I think training for it could get me more motivated. Even if we don't end up doing it (it's a little expensive and we'd have to drive out of state for it), I think I'm still going to train as if I am doing it. It will still be away of pushing myself, and hey, if I have another opportunity to do one in the future, I'll already be prepared.
Alright, that's all for now. Tomorrow...RUNNING. EATING WELL. That's a promise.
Getting healthy is as much about exercise and eating right as it is about banishing negative influences (and people) from your life. Don't let people dampen your shine, girl. You're worth so much more than that.
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