Um...what??

So....I weighed myself this morning. Um....I lost 7 pounds. In a week. What?! I still don't believe it... I weighed myself twice just to be sure. Then I weighed myself on my roommate's scale. It was the same. I weighed myself twice the first time I did it (last week), too because I forgot what the exact number was when I went to write it down. I don't get it....first off, that's a LOT to lose in one week. Not even really healthy. And I feel like if I really lost that much in that short of a time, I would be able to tell. I mean, yes, I feel like I look thinner. But not THAT much thinner. And I would expect to see some major difference in the way my pants fit. They seem a little looser, I guess, but not anything so significant that I would know hands down I lost a number of pounds. I don't know...I'm just confused. And I know my body. I've been on diets many times, and I've never lost that much. And I know I haven't been eating a lot, and what I have been eating has pretty much all been whole, unprocessed foods. But generally my body is very sensitive to the "not eating enough" thing, and doesn't lose. So I'm kind of shocked and not quite sure what to think. I guess it's good (?) if it's right. But it also kind of scares me because I feel like this week my body is going to totally rebel and gain or something. I wouldn't be surprised if I don't lose anything - which is ok, because even an average of 3 1/2 pounds a week is awesome. But I just hope I can keep going.... I don't know. I still feel like it's wrong somehow. lol.

Anyway, moving on.... I was supposed to go running before work, but I was so tired. Now that my body has finally decided to start sleeping again, I think it's making up for lost time. I did go walking after work though to run some errands, and then my room mates and I just got back from walking to a frozen yogurt place. So I'd say I probably walked a total of 2.5 miles.

For breakfast I had a cup of non-fat milk and a bowl of raspberries. I was in kind of a rush, so I didn't have a lot of time. For lunch I had lettuce wraps with the low-sodium ham and some spicy mustard, and cherry tomatoes on the side. I also had a cup of milk with that. Later for a snack I had a peach. I was going to make dinner later, after I ran some errands, but I hadn't gotten around to it and then my room mate's asked if I wanted to walk with them to the yogurt place. Since I'd only eaten about 450 calories so far, I went with them and ended up getting a very small amount of yogurt (probably about 1/2 a cup) and filling the rest with the fresh fruit. Yum. I figure I'll overestimate it and say it was a total of 200 calories. I'm still really low for the day.... We stopped at CVS on the way home so they could get a drink. I REALLY wanted to get something to eat there, but there was nothing healthy, so I didn't. Yay me. But I have no food that sounds remotely good right now, so I'm kind of thinking about just going to bed since it's already so late. I'm never quite sure if it would be better for me to eat right before bed, or to not eat enough calories in the day. Hmm.

I think dieting - especially when I do it the way I have been, where I really focus on trying to only eat whole foods - makes me realize how much I eat for emotional reasons only (comfort, boredom, stress, etc.) Because when you're eating mostly vegetables, fruit, lean protein, etc. there just isn't that same desire to eat it for other reasons than hunger. Don't get me wrong, I like the foods I'm eating and I like healthy food in general, but it just isn't the same as when you know you have a bag of chips in the pantry, or ice cream in the freezer, etc. and you want to eat it because it tastes good and it will give you some kind of emotional response. An orange or a handful of carrots just doesn't quite do that.

But at the same time, I think I tend to enjoy food more when I'm dieting, because I don't take it for granted. I know that what I have on my plate is all I have to eat for a while, so I focus on it more than if I know I can go get another serving. Or three. And I think one of my favorite parts of dieting is coming up with recipes that fulfill my cravings for things I shouldn't eat, but are made with healthy ingredients. I think it's fun to come up with ingredients to substitute not so healthy foods. I haven't had a lot of time to do that lately, but now that our gas is back on, I'm definitely going to do more of that.

Tomorrow I have a "go-see" for a modeling job. I need to lose about 20 pounds and grow about 6 inches by morning. haha. I'm pretty excited about it even though I know there's very little chance they'll cast me. It's still kind of fun to have the opportunity to do something I've never done before.

Well here's to starting another week of this journey. This blog has been a big help so far!