Well I didn't exactly stick with my mantra from my last post. I started the day out really well. I have like no groceries in the house, so that made it more difficult. But I really didn't feel like going to the grocery store. So I had coffee instead of vegetable juice. I figure it's still somewhat of a fasting process for breakfast. Lunch I had sweet potato and vegetables. Then I went to work. And shortly before work, I got some news that really frustrated me and stressed me out. So I ended up having some of the "family meal" at work and some bread. And then had pizza for dinner after work. Ugh. :( And I also didn't work out.
Honestly, I just want to get this whole moving process over with. I feel like I can't focus on anything at all because I'm so stressed out about my decision. People keep trying to talk me out of it, and they're right. I already feel like I made the wrong decision to move. But I also feel like it's just too late to change my mind. I just feel completely distracted and scattered and the idea of focusing on invoking my will power at all times seems totally out of reach. So even if I make the wrong decision and I'm not happy, I almost just want to get to wherever I'm going so I can get my focus back. I wasn't happy the first time I started this either, but at least I felt like I could channel all of my energy into it. And at the moment I don't feel like that at all.
Tomorrow I'm taking an impromptu trip to Vegas. My friend's boyfriend has a short-term job there, so he offered to get her a hotel room so she could come out for one night and bring friends. So me and another girl from work are going to drive up there with her. In some ways I don't feel like it's great timing since I really need to start packing and I have a ton to do in the next week. But it's hard to turn down a free trip to Vegas. Especially since a week from now I will no longer be in driving distance. It also means I probably won't be working out or eating particularly healthy for the next two days. But I guess I'll at least try to make good choices.
Good night.
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