My Secret Weapon

Well I wasn't perfect today, but I did pretty well. And even when I started to slip, I pulled myself back. So I feel like I at least WANT to get back on track at this point. In the last few weeks I just generally have felt like I didn't even really care anymore. So I think I'm headed in the right direction.

I was going to go to the store after work and get stocked up with lots of healthy foods, but the weather had other plans. Major tornado warnings all over the state from the time I left work until like 11:00 tonight. So I didn't really want to get out in that... I guess I'll try to go tomorrow and just make do with what I have. Probably make a quick run in the morning so I can get some juice for breakfast.

Breakfast: Carrot juice. Lunch: Tuna with mustard and baby carrots. Dinner: Half a piece of frozen pizza, a handful of potato chips, and 5-6 twizzlers. Snacks: Oranges, dark chocolate.

Ok...so "dinner" sucked. lol. I got home and started to fall into my old routine of get off work, watch TV, and eat like crap. But that's when I pulled myself back. Luckily even though I ate unhealthy foods, my portions weren't awful (I only had half a piece of pizza left and the bag of chips was pretty much empty). So after I did that, I slapped myself on the wrist (figuratively) and decided I wasn't going to do that to myself. So instead of continuing into that dark tunnel called binging, I worked out! And this is where I get to introduce my secret weapon and my new best friend!

A treadmill of my very own!

My step-dad has a treadmill that he rarely ever uses. So I decided to ask if he would let me borrow it for a few months. And he did! I'm pretty excited about it! I just figure it's a lot harder to make excuses about working out if there's a treadmill sitting (literally) right next to my couch! And tonight, for instance, there is no way I would have gone out in the storms to go to the gym. But because it was right there and I really couldn't do anything else but watch TV anyway, why not burn some calories while I do it? I did 45 minutes of intervals and then weights and abs. It feels awesome to have had a fairly successful day!

I was planning to have some vegetables or something to supplement my dinner without adding a lot of calories. But unfortunately I've been super dehydrated lately and have had like a constant headache. Even though I tried to drink a ton of water, working out definitely didn't help that. So I'm feeling pretty crappy in terms of having an appetite. Not great that I feel bad, but I'm glad I'm not starving or anything since I pretty much used up my calories with my little slip earlier in the evening.

Anyway, hopefully I can continue on this path. I feel good about it. And honestly, I felt really good at work today because I was eating healthy and light foods. I want to feel light again not weighed down by the crap I am feeding my body!

And one final picture...

I love this picture. It was taken on January 14th...the night my roommate's took me out for my birthday. I LOVE how my body looks here. My shoulder/chest area looks so slim and fit. The frame of my body just looks so small. I love it. This is where I want to get back to. I remember a guy at the bar that night told me I had an amazing body. And while that wasn't the first time a guy had said that to me (hey, I've got big boobs...) it was the first time I'd ever believed it. I want to be that girl again. And I will be. :)