Small Steps, Long Runs

I had some ups and downs today, but overall it was pretty good. I was going to run in the morning, but I was feeling lazy. I didn't have to work until 6, so I figured I would just wait and go early enough in the afternoon where I would still have time to take a shower and go to work. Generally when I put off working out like this, I don't end up going. So in the back of my mind I knew it wasn't the best idea. But I didn't slack off. I went around 3 and sweated my ass off! It was hot. I didn't run as much as I did last night, but I ran at least half of the time. And did I mention it was hot? Even when the temperature is quite a bit lower than I'm used to in Arkansas, and there isn't the same level of humidity, it still feels really hot! The sun just beats down on you out here in a way that doesn't happen in other parts of the country. Anyway, after my run I did my weights and abs and stretched. That's three days in a row of full on working out. Yay!

Food was also up and down today. For breakfast I had 3 egg whites with some mushrooms and a little bit of the low-sodium ham I had left. With that I had a strawberry and mango smoothie, which I added ice and 1/2 cup of skim milk to. Then I ran into a problem...

You know, I can avoid restaurants where I know I'll be surrounded by temptations. I can avoid the aisles in the grocery store where I know there will be "bad" foods. I can even avoid commercials for food on TV. But I have a problem of wanting whatever food someone happens to mention or happens to be eating in front of me. And I can't really avoid watching any TV show or movie where they mention or eat unhealthy foods! haha. So I was watching Sex and the City, and Carrie decides to mention muffins. Argh! I was all of a sudden dying for a muffin! Two summers ago when I lost a decent amount of weight, I read about these vitamuffins that you can buy. They're 100 calories and supposedly made with good ingredients, as well as supply you with a good amount of fiber and vitamins. I tried the muffin tops back then, but I was not very impressed with the texture or taste. However, I decided to see if there was a store nearby where I could buy them, since I figured it was better than nothing. I found one and decided to go. Well they didn't have them. So I went to another place. I looked for a long time and could not find them. I had already kind of had my mind set that I was going to have some kind of muffin or something similar, so I was getting into "screw the diet" mode. I picked up an individually wrapped brownie that looked delicious. Then I decided to ask someone at the store if they had the vitamuffins. They did. I bought a box, but for some stupid reason, I still bought the brownie. I justified it as feeling like the muffin wouldn't satisfy me since I didn't really like the taste that much the first time I tried them. But it was stupid, nonetheless. The type of muffin I got this time was much better. Pretty good actually. And I probably would have been completely satisifed, except for that I had a brownie sitting on my desk. I should have just thrown it away. But did I? No. I ate it. The whole thing. All 450 calories of it. Argh! I'll never learn!

Anyway, luckily I was still under my calories, so I managed to stop myself from going into the mindset of  "well I already screwed it up, so I might as well eat everything I can possibly find." I stayed rational and convinced myself that as long as I ate light for the rest of the day, I would be under my calories and all would be fine. I guess that's a step in the right direction. This was even before I worked out, so normally it would have been very hard for me to still work out because I would have lost all my motivation. But I didn't. I just kept going. Awesome. After the brownie fiasco (lol), I had a nectarine before work. And when I got home from work (about 12:30) I had some raspberries and strawberries. I'm debating whether I should eat anything else. I still have a few hundred calories, but I hate eating so late and right before bed....

I'm so excited to be off work tomorrow! I'm going to go for my run in the evening tomorrow, and spend the day relaxing while getting a few random things done. I hope everyone is having a good weekend.